monkays

 hello. monkay here.
i was wondering how should i end learning to love?

JAEHO [like i was soppose to]
OR
JAEMIN [like how many readers want it.]

 hello friends,
posting next chapter to learning to love again is going to take longer then i expected. 
i must change and twist the story a-bit to satisfy my readers ^^  so i hope you dont mind the wait
this week is my birthday week, meaning i m EXTREAMLY busy.
here is my scedule...

monday-wednsday: preperations
thursday: my birthday
friday: my party
saturday: friends graduation party
sunday: sunday school
monday: drivng lessons
thurday: family from california coming over
wendsday-thursday: [i m free and going to try to post]
friday-monday: going to oklahoma

so ya that is my schedual starting MONDAY!
so posting will be hard but i will try to sneak in here to post ^^
-bye-

Hello, some of you have read my 2nd fanfiction up here called, learning to love again
i m currently working up the chapters and i have a question...
my story is mostly JAEMIN [that is why it is in the jaemin community]
there is YOOSU on the side [b/c it is main i did not post it up in yoosu community]
the story is currently leaning in JAEHO and is having some JAEHO involved [but because it is not mainly jaeho i took it out of jaeho detrox once i was told to by a few people]
wither or not the ending ends up being jaeho or jaemin i cannot say ^^

but what i m really asking is can a story mainly be JAEMIN and then end as a JAEHO? [i want to know this for this story and more in the future.] 
thank you

 OMG this update took forever, and i m so sorry 
since the dream concert events i have been so caught up with everthing! my sweet 16 is coming up and also my driving test, and summer school, and family from california! but after this update the others shouldnt take so long! 

this is chapter is mostly YOOSU because nothing has been going on with them really.
next chapter should include some jaeho emotions to rise up. but we will just have to wait and see.
anyways here is chapter 4 of learning to love again.


Chapter 4

"Chunnie?" Yoochun stirred in bed trying to get the unwanted weight off his chest. He felt restrained and he was unable to move. His eyes opened only to see darkness. He swore his eyes were open, but why was he not seeing anything? Those familiar hands on his chest caressing him lovingly.

"Junsu, what are you doing?" Junsu just giggled and gives Yoochun a playful kiss before straddling Yoochun's hips.

"Remember when you told me if I listened to you that one morning, you would listen to me here on the bed? Well I thought you should listen to me today." Junsu purred before going down for one more kissing before getting up and leaving the room.

"You can't just leave me here all tied up and blind folded Su! what if the others come in and see me like this!"

"If they see you like this, they would just get horny. But don't worry Chunnie they are all out getting some food, it's only me and you!" Junsu called back. For some reason Yoochun was getting a little bit afraid of being alone with Junsu and his dirty mind. Minutes seemed like hours and Junsu didn't return. He struggled against the handcuffs holding his arms up and secured on the bed post, "where the hell did he get these from?" Yoochun wondered. Suddenly chills ran up his spine and he gasped as he felt an ice move around his exposed chest.

"Junsu! that's cold!' Yoochun whined.

"I want to play Chunnie." Junsu said before lifting the blindfold off his lovers eyes. Yoochun's adjusting eyes were welcomed to the sight of a sexy, and shirtless Junsu leaning down over him. Yoochun saw both lust and love in his eyes and he smiled before rising his head up to catch Junsu lips for a kiss, but was only pushed down. "I do everything this time, that is why you're all tied up." Junsu growled and licked Yoochun's ear. Junsu got back on the bed and on top of Yoochun straddling him once again. He got some ice cubes and began placing them on Yoochun's stomach before leaning down to suck on the ice cubes which laid on Yoochun's toned abs. The heat of Junsu's mouth and the chill from the ice cubes made him arch his back and grind his hips against the smaller man. Junsu pushed Yoochun's hips back down and began sucking on the ice cubes louder and letting out a moan once in a while. Yoochun couldn't take it, it was driving him crazy his hands tied up he couldn't do anything,

"Junsu, stop being a tease." Yoochun mumbled while Junsu got up to the point where their noses were touching. Junsu began tugging on Yoochuns hair and grinding his hips into Yoochuns, feeling him harden. Junsu raised his arms and meet Yoochuns fingers and intertwined them.

"Do you want me to unlock your hands?" Junsu whispered into Yoochun's ears.

"Please."

"No." Junsu sat back down on Yoochun laughing hysterically. Yoochun began to struggle more against the metal with a look of annoyance. He watched Junsu lay on top of him and begin playing with his nipples. Sucking and tugging on them, like a newborn baby who was hungry. Yoochun moaned and wrapped his legs around Junsu's waist grinding into him hard, trying to stop the burning pain of his arousal.

"Junsu! please..."

"Please what?"

"Fuck me." Yoochun pleaded. His mind and body were taken in a state of insanity. Junsu was toying with him and enjoying every bit of it.

"I don't want to." Junsu grinned when he saw Yoochun's expression change from a state of want and lust into shock and anger. "Chunnie don't be mad." Junsu informed before taking Yoochun's hungry lips for another kiss.

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The sunny day was shaded with a cloud of awkwardness hovering above the three men who hadn't said a word since they had left their apartment. All three kept their heads down, recalling the events of last night.

“Changmin,” Jaejoong's smooth voice made the other two boys look up, “I'm sorry about last night.” Jaejoong halted and looked and Changmin, waiting for a reply. Changmin said nothing, but placed a quick but sweet kiss on Jaejoong's lips showing him he forgive him. Yunho turned around at the sight and continued walking to the market.

“Common you two.” he called and the other two immediately followed.

“Hey you guys we should go to the club tonight!” Jaejoong suddenly exclaimed when he meet up with Yunho. Yunho stuffed his hands in his pockets before answering,

“Why? So you could get drunk again?” He asked with a grin.

“No. For fun. How about it Minnie?”

“No.”

“Please!” Jaejoong whined while tugging at Changmin's arm playfully.

“What do you think Yunho?” Yunho opened the door to the market and turned to face the two men behind him.

“Lets get back home first.

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Yoochun's wrist where now red with pain as he continued to struggle to be free. Junsu was killing him. Junsu had discarded his own and Yoochuns long ago, and Junsu has been licking his inner thighs slowly brushing past his member driving Yoochun crazy.

“Junsu please, st-stop” Junsu only laughed when he saw his lover begging him. It was quiet exotic sight. His body glowing under his, dark brown hair sticking to his face. Yoochun's eyes where shut tight from all the painful pleasure he was feeling. His eyes burst open when he felt something warm and wet envelope his weeping member. Junsu was working his tongue up and down the sensitive part of the older man's cock , enjoying the moans coming out of his lovers mouth. Just when Yoochun felt the lower part of his body tense and his muscles all tighten, right when he thought he was going to come, Junsu stopped. “Junsu! What the fuck is your prob-” He was cut off when Junsu kissed him violently. This was the 4^th time Yoochun had almost got to his climax, but Junsu would stop just to tease him. “Why Junsu? Why are you doing this to me?” he gasped. Junsu got up and sat on Yoochun's stomach and flashed him a smile.

“This is for all the times you tease and torture me. Now you know how I feel when you do it. So Chunnie from now on do me a favor and stop being a tease.”

“OK, can you free my hands now?” Junsu went down to Yoochuns ears and licked it before going down to his jaw.

“Nope” Yoochun wanted to cry. He couldn't believe what Junsu was doing to him. Junsu leaned over to the bedside table to get a bottle of lube out. He began to place some lube on his fingers and circled Yoochun's tight ring. Yoochun jerked uncomfortable when he felt Junsu's fingers intrude him. Another finger was added and Yoochun stiffened, he wasn't used to the pleasure he was being given because he would usually be the dominate one. “Shh, relax Chun.” Yoochun took a deep breath and did what he was told, once Junsu felt him relax he began doing a scissoring motion with his fingers trying to loosen him. The older man under him was squirming under him, with his head tiled to the side with his eyes shut. Junsu remove his fingers and smiled when he heard a whine of disappointment coming from Yoochun. Yoochun was hoping Junsu wasn't teasing with him again, or else he would die. Junsu picked up Yoochun's legs and placed the on his shoulder, before positioning himself in front of the entrance. Yoochun could feel his heart pounding inside his chest, but that was not the only thing pounding, something else was pounding. Yoochun suddenly felt his legs drop and he heard two clicks and his hands fell free.

“They're here.” Yoochun looked up to see Junsu putting on his pants and washing his hands.

“NO! Junsu you cant do this, you haven't finished!” Yoochun ran up and grabbed Junsu's arms in desperation. Junsu pushed Yoochun away and smiled and vile smile,

“They are at the door waiting, maybe next time.” Yoochun's movements were so fast Junsu didn't even see it coming all he knows was he was pinned against a wall roughly with Yoochun's lips only inches away from his.

“I swear Kim Junsu, I will get you back for this.”

“I will be waiting Park Yoochun.” Yoochun let go of Junsu and walked out of the room with a satisfied smile. “Your back.” Junsu said to the three boys that walked into the house.

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Jaejoong was in the kitchen making food, with Changmin arm around his waist and his neck in the crook of Jaejoong's neck. Yunho was in the living room with Junsu who was bouncing up and down the couch while watching soccer. Yoochun came into the kitchen water still dripping from his hair as he reached for a carrot Jaejoong was chopping up. Jaejoong gasped and grabbed Yoochun's arm pointing to his wrist. “What happened to your wrists! They are bruised and cut up!” Jaejoong's worried voice caught Changmin's attention and he raised his head of Jaejoong to look at what was worrying his boyfriend. His eyes grew big at the sight and he let go of Jaejoong to examine his hyung's wrists. They were a sicking color of purple and blue with small indications of where his wrist where cut, and blood leaked out. Jaejoong came back with bandages and began to tend to his wrist. Changmin asked again Jaejoong's unanswered question. “What happened?” Yoochun only looked back at Junsu who was waving back at the three boys in the kitchen. Changmin darted his eyes from one boy to another until Yoochun took something out of his pockets and handed them to him. “Handcuffs?”

“Make sure you hid them someplace where Junsu will NEVER find them.” When Jaejoong finished mending Yoochun's hands, he handed them a coffee and he heading back to cooking. Yoochun went over to the couch and wrapped his arm around Junsu bringing him closer to him and whispered, “That was painfully fun love.” Junsu smiled and put his head on Yoochun's shoulder and continued to watch the soccer game. Changmin attention was not on the soccer game though, he was busy watching Yunho, who was looking at his boyfriend, with something in his eyes, and it wasn't something he had ever seen before. 


to me all my chapters seem soo short compared to many other fictions, but this is my second fanfiction so i m not beating myself up about it. i just hope i get better in time. so ya again comments and advice are loved. thank you for reading ^^

Many of you may be wondering "where the hell did the update go?" i m very sorry. i have summer school, my birthday is coming up (and planning big party), i m taking driving class, and i have guest from California. T_T updating and getting on the computer is soo hard for me lately. i will be updating this week hopefully ^^ and chapters after that may fly in quickly, but then it might halt again next week because of my birthday. so please forgive me T_T thank you. i must part now.

Alright here is the next Chapter. ( Sorry this one is not to great, and I hope you don't get confused ). 
All the talk about the Dream Concert just made me sidetracked and mad. I couldn't think striaght.
But ya here is Chapter 3 of Learing to Love. 

Chapter 3

 

 

            In the middle of the night with the moon still high in the sky, Jaejoong woke up. He couldn't sleep; something was eating at him at the moment. Jaejoong turned to look at the sleeping Changmin next to him. He looked so peaceful and beautiful with the moon's light falling on his toned chest. His brown long hair falling over his face and onto his shoulders. Jaejoong snaked his hand and wrapped his arms around Changmin bringing him closer. Changmin opened his eyes, his long eyelashes fluttering a couple of times until he saw Jaejoong's bothered face in front of him.

            "What's wrong Jaejoong?" Changmin asked as he brought himself slightly up using his elbow. Jaejoong let go of Changmin and sat down, the thin blanket covering his upper body falling exposing his pale skin.

            "Min..." Jaejoong turned to face him tilting his head to the side slightly, "...do you love me?" His intense eyes were burning holes into Changmin.

            "..."

            "Well do you?" he asked again, impatiently.

            "Jae ...”

            "Min do you love me or not?! Or are you using me like everyone else did!?" Jaejoong suddenly snapped and got off the bed in a violent matter heading to the door. Changmin ran quickly after him.

            "Jaejoong!"

            "Fuck off Changmin!" Jaejoong violently pushed him into the wall. After a quick recovery from the impact he went back to try to calm Jaejoong down. He was on another rampage. Changmin went and held Jaejoongs hands before sliding his foot behind his making Jaejoong fall to the ground with Changmin following him.

            "Get off me!" Jaejoong yelled as Changmin continued to hold him down. The door slammed open with Yunho and Junsu running toward the scene. Junsu got Changmin off Jaejoong, once Changmin was off him Jaejoong ran towards Changmin pulling him down by his hair. Changmin yelped in pain as Yunho and Junsu tried to get Jaejoong off the younger boy.  Yunho held Jaejoong's wrist and applied pressure until Jaejoong let go.

            "Changmin I hate you!  You’re just the same as the others!"

            "Min, Su you guys get out I will stay with Jaejoong tonight." Yunho said in a strict voice, only looking at Jaejoong but directing the command to the other two boys. The two younger boys left leaving Jaejoong and Yunho alone.

            "Get out." Jaejoong said turning his head looking away from Yunho, and most of the time Yunho or the others would listen but when Yunho said "No." He was caught by surprise. Jaejoong went back into his bed with his back facing Yunho who sat in the armchair next to him. Yunho just stared at Jaejoong's back recalling the past events that turned his loving friend into a heartless man.

 

*History*

            The five of them where all friends since high school, living together and always having fun. They were boys with great looks as well as grades; they were the guys everyone wished to be. Two years into high school Yoochun the player and Junsu the duck-butt fell in love with each other and have been dating ever since. Jaejoong on the other hand was always the mother of the group making them breakfast and lunch. He would always be thinking about the others before himself that he would sometimes forget his own lunch. He was just the guy any girl would love to date. He was just full of so much love and kindness, but then he began hanging out with the wrong people during his senior year. Jaejoong was pulled into drugs, trouble with the cops, and even prostitution. Nobody knows how it happened it was so sudden. Right before graduation he dropped out of high school. We always tried to stop him, but he never listen just always saying he was ok. Couple of years into his secret life he was rapped, and it all went downhill for him. He was silent for the next month before he finally started talking. The only good that came out of it was that he got out of the life of a prostitute, and we were all relieved. Slowly Jaejoong was getting better, more smiles, and more caring looks. He was always the first up again cooking something up in the kitchen...that is until Heechul came.

            They meet in a club, Jaejoong was having a couple of shots as usual when a strikingly gorgeous man came and sat by him starting conversation. Next thing you know they were dating. The red haired man would always be cradling him, whispering sweet words into his ear. You would think they are just perfect together but that was wrong. Sure Jaejoong might have been in love with Heechul's caring personality but the same could have not been said for Heechul who was only in love with Jaejoong's body.

*End history lesson* (Damn that was short, *author hits herself*)

 

            Jaejoong stirred in his bed, waking Yunho up. He was grabbing onto the bed sheets beads of sweat falling from his forehead.

 

*Jaejoong's dream*

            "Shhh, Jae it’s ok." Heechul continued to repeat slowly pushing Jaejoong onto the bed, climbing on top of him.

            "I don't want too, I'm scared"

            "Do you love me?"

            "Yes."

            "Then you will let me."

            "But..."

            "Please Jae." Heechul finished the conversation by locking lips with the smaller man, forcing his tongue into Jaejoong's warm mouth. Heechul slipped his hands up his shirt feeling the sculpted chest, and teasing his nipples. Jaejoong moaned into Heechul's mouth who drank up and the sweet sounds hungrily. Heechul broke the kiss to pull of Jaejoong's shirt, tossing it someplace besides them before he took off his. The feeling of naked skin touching made them both shudder. The red haired man began nipping at Jaejoong's neck leaving trails of kisses all the way down to his jaw.  He went down to Jaejoong's nipples playing with them with his tongue. Jaejoong could only moan and whimper at the man's smooth touches. Heechul began grinding his hips into Jaejoongs causing Jaejoong to buck his hips upwards into Heechuls. He could feel the smaller mans burning erection even through his jeans, and it felt good. Before Jaejoong knew it, Heechul was working on his pants. Jaejoongs hands quickly shot up stopping Heechul from undoing his pants.

            "Heechul, I can't do this." Jaejoong gulped. Heechul's soft eyes sharpened sending a cold chill up Jaejoong's spine.

            "Yes you can."

            "Heechul I don't want to do this." Heechul ignored his request as he pulled down Jaejoong's pants down. He quickly got up getting rid of his as well. He then spread Jaejoong's legs lying in between them, their members meeting. Jaejoong moaned out loud at the feeling. Heechul took the raven haired boy lips for another intense kiss before he began massaging his inner thighs. Jaejoong groaned as Heechul only came inches away from his burning member. All of Jaejoong's thoughts disappeared when he felt a warm mouth wrap around his erection. Jaejoong trusted his hips up, and deeper into Heechul's mouth who almost gagged. He pushed Jaejoong's hips back down and continued to lick the throbbing erection teasingly, before he bit it slightly. Jaejoong gasped in pain, but it soon turned into pleasure as Heechul began licking the wound. Heechul got back up for another kiss, letting Jaejoong taste himself though his mouth. Heechul couldn’t contain himself anymore, the weak small body squirming under him made him so aroused. Jaejoong was suddenly turned around on his stomach and without any warning Heechul thrust into him. Tears were streaming down Jaejoong’s pale skin as he felt himself being torn apart by the man that was suppose to love him, and care about his feelings.

            “Heechul, please stop it hurts.” Jaejoong cried, but Heechul just ignored as he began to bang into him harder. Blood fell between Jaejoong’s thighs, and he felt like he was going to die. Heechul came into Jaejoong with a groan, and Jaejoong felt the other mans seeds go into the deepest depths of him. Heechul turned Jaejoong over to face him and planted a kiss on his swollen lips, tasting the salty tears.

            “I want you out of my apartment by morning, Jaejoong”

            “Heechul, please don’t. I thought you loved me”

            “No.”

            “Then why, why tell me you did all the time? Why did you always care for me?”

            “So I can have this” Heechul snaked his hand down and pinched Jaejoong’s butt.

            “I never fuck the same guy twice, but I might make an exception for you, because you are so beautiful and you were more fun than most. You’re too beautiful did you really think someone as beautiful as you could be loved? Just make sure you’re out before I wake up. Bye.” And with that Heechul got up and left Jaejoong to cry. He couldn’t even move. He felt like he was torn in half, he felt so fitly, so unwanted.

*End of Jaejoong’s dream*

           

Yunho watched him silently; he must be having that dream again. He will never forget the way Jaejoong looked when he entered the apartment broken. He eyes red, his lips swollen, and his voice shaky. He came to Yunho and fell. He cried his heart out that day, and told him everything that happened. Yunho shared the tears with Jaejoong as he heard the story. How could someone be so cruel? After the story was finished Yunho slowly undressed him to give him a shower, more tears flowed when he saw dry blood on Jaejoong’s legs. He took him into the bath and gave him a shower rubbing all the filth away. Afterwards he laid Jaejoong on the bed, who slept all through the next day. The other three where informed of what had happened the next day. Yunho and Jaejoong became really close. Yunho would tend to Jaejoong’s every need and wouldn’t ever leave his side. Everyone thought they would date soon, if not already, but about three weeks later Changmin and Jaejoong began dating. Nobody knew how it happened. All they knew was that Yunho was left heartbroken and questions began clouding his mind, but he didn’t let that stop him from caring for the older man.

 

Jaejoong’s eyes opened and he looked at Yunho who was watching him intently. He got up and began crying, “I had that dream again.”


The end: i hope you liked it ^^ anyways i also hope this cleared up some questions. the history about how jaejoong and changmin happened will come up in next chapter, then the chapter after that the five of them go out for some fun and emotions start coming out between jaejoong and yunho. ohh lets see how that goes. also later one, some fun teasing action with yoochun and junsu will start to heat up. ^^ ok untill then goodbye. yes i know this chapter sucked, please dont hurt me. ( runs and hides )

Well here you go folks!,
I tried not to take too long on this update.

Title: Learing to love again
Pairing: Jaemin, Jaeho, Yoosu, (some suprises)
Rating: NC17
Lenght: (i dont even know)
Chapter: 2 out of ??

(a fellow reader noted out spelling errors T_T sorry, so i hope i did better in this one)
(again comments and cirtisisms are loved (shoot i spelled that wrong!)

Chapter 2

Later that afternoon Yoochun was watching T.V with Junsu sound asleep on his lap. Junsu looked so cute asleep with his lips slightly parted Yoochun was tempted to kiss him, but didn't want to wake him from his slumber. Instead he tangled his fingers within Junsu’s hair and fell asleep with him. Changmin was playing video games in Yunho’s room and proudly winning when suddenly Jaejoong came into the room and pounced on Changmin.

"Minnie!!" Jaejoong exclaimed in a happy tone before being pushed off roughly.

"Jae, you’re going to make me lose!" Jaejoong pouted at Changmin’s reply.

"Fine I will leave I just wanted to tell you I’m going out for a walk. Chunnie and Su are asleep on the couch. Ok?"

"Ok. Have fun."

"Be back before it gets dark." Yunho said, and with that Jaejoong left them to their game. Jaejoong walked down the stairs of the apartment and onto the sidewalk. He ran his hand in his hair as we continued walking heading nowhere in particular. The sun was setting and sky was blended with many tints of pink, orange, and blue it truly was a beautiful sight. His white dress shirt was open at the top exposing a decent amount of his pale chest that would leave any girl satisfied at the sight of him. He entered the marketplace and greeting familiar and unfamiliar people with a sweet smile. He continued walking though the marketplace until he got to an empty part of it. Suddenly the corners of his mouth fell at the sight of the taller man just a couple of feet away from him. He look all too familiar…his crimson hair falling to his shoulder, his black suit hugging his lean body, and that feminine face that was prettier than most girls. Those memories that had been hidden deep in his thoughts where coming back, the cruel words that were said to him, the feeling of being beat to the point he would rather die.

"Jaejoong?"

After hearing his name, Jaejoong quickly turned around and began walking back home, he didn’t want to deal with this now. Hearing the footsteps coming closer he quickened his pace. "Why are you running from me Jae?" The man said again walking faster behind him. It was dark now, and this wasn’t looking good. Out of fright Jaejoong accidently turned at the wrong corner and was running into a dead end. Jaejoong froze when he hit a wall, there was nowhere to go, and the other man was right behind him. Jaejoong quickly turned around only to be welcomed by a sick grin.

"Well, well Jaejoong. It has been quite a while since I talked to you. When was the last time? About 7 months ago. You’re doing better I see with that little boyfriend of yours hanging around all the time. What was his name again? Changmin, he sure does look like he loves you." The beautiful man made sure Jaejoong heard the sarcasm in his voice. The red haired man moved closer to Jaejoong and Jaejoong kept scooting back until he hit a wall. The man was now only centimeters away from him before whispering again, "Jae I want you back in my life. I miss you, love."

With disgust Jaejoong pushed the man away, "well I don’t want you back in mine." The older man grabbed his wrist quickly and pulled him in for a slow kiss his tongue rubbing against Jaejoong’s lower lip asking for access. When Jaejoong didn’t let him in he quickly snaked his hand down and slipped it down to Jaejoong’s pants. "…n-no." Jaejoong whispering in protest and with that the taller man pulled his hands out and slipped his tongue in the little room he was given. Jaejoong closed his eyes shut as he felt the man violate his mouth his tongue probing the caverns of his mouth. Jaejoong couldn’t take it anymore and clamped down on the other man's dominating tongue. He yelped in pain as he pushed himself of Jaejoong cursing under his breath.

"Son of a bitch!" was all Jaejoong got before an agonizing slap was thrown at him. Jaejoong staggered back a little and clutched on to his burning cheek. The taller man pinned Jaejoongs arms next to him before kissing him roughly again. This time not asking for permission, he just bit down on Jaejoongs bottom lip and once they parted he entered his warm mouth once again. Jaejoong could taste the bitter taste of his own blood as he shut his eyes tight wishing this nightmare to end.

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"Yunho, Jaejoong is not back yet and it’s late. Do you think he is ok?"

"I don’t know Min." Yunho and Changmin where sitting around the table at the kitchen staring at the time. Minutes seemed like hours as they waiting for Jaejoong to come back.

"Hey you guys don’t worry about it. He is probably out having some fun. Let him be" Yoochun exclaimed in a happy voice, "anyways Yunho what were you planning to do tonight?"

"Oh, I just wanted to go clubbing tonight for some dancing, drinking, and some fun. But I guess we can forget about that now."

"Let’s go without Jaejoong, I want a couple of drinks." Yoochun said. Sadly he got nothing but some angry glares from Changmin and Yunho.

"I think you should shut up Chunnie." Junsu warned his man. Yunho suddenly got up chair falling behind him. The others looked at him as he began to speak, "Let’s go look for him." Once a plan was formed they all walked out the door and into the silent night. Junsu and Yunho went towards the marketplace while Changmin and Yoochun heading near the club.

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"Please st-stop." Jaejoong panted his breath quickening as the older man began grinding his hips against Jaejoongs.

"I’m going to break you just like I did before." The man said his crimson hair now flustered. He began unbuttoning Jaejoong’s shirt as he nipped on his neck at the same time. He then moved his mouth to Jaejoong’s left nipple and began sucking on it while continuing to unbutton the rest of his shirt. The feel of the cold metal pierced trough Jaejoong’s nipple made him even more aroused. He held the metal in his teeth as he slowly began to tug on in, forcing a moan out of the shorter boy. Jaejoong head fell back when the older man gave attention to his other nipple.

Jaejoong bit back another moan trying to force its way out of him. After the man was done giving equal attention to both he went back up and kissed Jaejoong again. Jaejoong began squirming under him as he felt the man's hand rub against his heated member. The taller man liked what he was feeling under the small boy’s pants. He then slid his hands down past Jaejoong’s slender waist before working on untying the belt. Jaejoong began feeling the pain of the past in his gut, and it hurt. He regained some power and with all the force he had left in him Jaejoong pushed the man off.

"STOP!" Jaejoong yelled as tears where now falling off his face when he saw the man ignoring his pleas and only advancing closer. Jaejoong slid down to the ground burying his head between his legs. He began shaking uncontrollable when he felt the man crouch down next to him his breath on his neck. Just when Jaejoong thought he couldn't handle anymore he heard a familiar voice.

"Heechul! What the hell! Get off him!" Yunho yelled before running up and pulling the crimson haired man off Jaejoong. Junsu ran up and held Jaejoong in his arm delicately as if he held him and tighter he would break.

"What the fuck did you do to him?" Junsu yelled.

"Nothing, just wanted to say hi. Just in case he forgot about me. I don’t just want to be a memory to him."

"You shouldn’t be just a memory you should be a forgotten past." Junsu spat out.

"Hmmm. Whatever I will see you later Jaejoong." Heechul turned around to give Jaejoong one more look and smiled, "A person as beautiful as you can never be loved only used." With that Heechul fixed his clothes and hair as he walked out the ally giving Yunho a smirk. Jaejoong’s shoulders shook and he was sobbing now. Junsu began cradling him like a child as he was trying to shush him. Yunho’s heart ached at the sight of Jaejoong. Someone as beautiful as him should be loved, not used. Yunho got his cell phone and dialed Changmin’s number and informed him they had found him. They brought Jaejoong back into the apartment.

Back at the apartment Jaejoong just walked into his bedroom with Changmin following. Jaejoong went to bedroom bathroom before turning to Changmin who was sitting on the bed his face in his palms.

"Minnie?"

"Yes Jae?

"Promise you won’t ever leave me?"

"I promise." Jaejoong closed the bathroom door and Changmin heard the shower turn on. Silent tears escaped Changmin. It was happening again, a promise that ended up binding him to the broken man.

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Yunho listened from outside the bedroom door. He sighed before getting off the door and walked to his room silently, he was tired of being so lonely.


Thanks for reading! again comments loved.
next chapter will be Jaejoong's past...maybe next few chapters will all be past...
i hope that doesnt make you bored
and i hope it clears some stuff up for you!
-BYE-

Hello, gosh my journal is such a mess. I'm kind of a newbie at all this and I was wondering can anyone tell me how to organize it because some of you guys journals are sooo nice! haha  T_T i dumb. ok thank you. and my english is not bad if you were wondering iam a addictive texter who texts soo much she writes in text language everywhere even in school. alright thanks.
-love monkays

Hello! Im Back! And guess what?! I finally got Chapter 1!!
Today was my last day of school and i passed all my exams scratch that!
i failed geometry.

Anyways i got an iPod touch so i was happy again!
DBSK is all over it. Haha. ok sorry im hyper.

Anyways here is chapter 1. I wasnt going to post it up, but 
i came home and decided i should quickly write this for all 
the people waiting.

anyways here it is!

Title: Learing to love again
Chapter: 1/??
Pairing: jaemin, jaeho, yoosu, and some suprises (maybe)
Rating: NC17

Chapter 1

 

 

The light from the outside blinded Changmin's ajusting eyes. He rubbed his eyes and looked over to see Jaejoong had already got up. With a yawn Changmin went into the bathroom and slowly began to strip. He stared at his toned body in the mirrior only to notice a few scars on his shoulder from last night. Memories began to flood his mind from it,

 "Min," Jaejoong whispered while he grasped on to Changmin's shoulders cluching on to him tight as Changmin entered him. Sweat glistening on his beautiful pale body. His raven locks sticking to the sides of his neck. His rosy red lips half open and swollen with low moans and wimpers escaping them. He looked so wonderful under him begging him for more, holding on as if he would die without him. The deeper Changmin pushed himself into his lover the deeper his lover's nails would sink into his back. The pain and pleasure was all mixing together producing an irresistable feeling for the both of them.

 Changmin shook his head as he brought himself back to reality and walked into the shower, letting the warm water caress his body.

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Junsu and Yoochun were on the table arguing for the last pancake. "Junsu. Be respecful, I'm older I should always have the last pancake." Yoochun purred into Junsu's ear. The older flickered his tounge out slightly playing with the earing hanging from the younger boy's ear. Junsu pushed him away before getting seduced into his dirty ways.

"Chunnie, shut up I'm younger I should get the pancake!" Junsu yelled as he continued to push the older man away. Yoochun grabbed onto the hand of his younger mate before pulling him in for a quick peak. Using the sexy bed voice he knew he had his whispered into Junsu's ear, "Su listen to me here and I will listen to you in bed." Yoochun said finishing it up with a quick lick on his earlobe. Junsu felt himself turn hard as he glared at Yoochun with envy and got up yo go to his room to calm down before he went crazy and pounched on the older man. Yoochun began to laugh histaricaly at the sight of the younger boy shift uncomforable and leaving him to his last pancake and a glass of coffee.

"Morning Jae, Morning Chun." Yunho spoke as he walked into the kitchen ruffling his hair slightly. "Mmm, smells great. What are you cooking up today Jae?"

"I made pancakes but Junsu and Yoochun ate it all. So I'm making more for you and Min." Jaejoong replied turning around to face Yunho with a cute smile before he turned back around to finish cooking. Yunho took his place in front of Yoochun and began talking and laughing. Jaejoong got the food and brought it over to Yunho and Yoochun who watched Jaejoong slowly put the food down. "Is something wrong, Jaejoong?" Yunho asked with a look of concern in his eyes.

"Oh! No i was just thinking, where is Changmin by the way?" Jaejoong asked turning his head around expecting to see his smiling face pop out of the corner, but when it didn't he spoke again, "I'm going to go look for him alright?" And with that he left the two younger ones to their business. Jaejoong walked down the isle before stopping in front of his door. He opened the door slowly only to be greeting with the sight of Changmin exposed except the towel wrapped around his waist. Changmin looked so exotic. Water falling from his brown hair, and rolling down his hard chest. "Oh, well look who it is? Jaejoong." Changmin said in a sexy tone once he saw his older lover walk into the room. Without noticing his own actions, Jaejoong walked into the room shuting the door behind him and wrapping his arms around Changmin's neck before bringing him into a sensual kiss. A moan fell out of Changmin's mouth and into Jaejoongs as he felt Jae's member harden and press against him. Changmin pushed Jaejoong into the closed door roughly letting his hands roam the older mans body. Changmin yanked on Jaejoong's hair pulling him back and making the kiss deeper.

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Junsu got out of his room after finally calming down from his incident with Yoochun in the kitchen. Making his way back to the kitching Junsu stopped dead in his tracks, when he heard heated noise coming out of Changmin and Jaejoong's room. He heard the soft purrs escape Jaejoong's lips and he felt the force Changmin used to push Jaejoong back into the wall hard. Junsu felt himself get hard again, "Shit Junsu, you really need to calm down." He thought to himself before turning back around to his room cluching onto his crotch.

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Changmin began unbuttoning Jaejoong's shirt leaving butterfly kisses on ever part he slowly began to expose. Jaejoong purred louder when Changmin went to his belly button peirce and began playing with it using his tounge. After giving attention to Jae's navel Changmin got to Jaejoongs waistline and tugged on his belt just before being pulled back up and taken into another kiss. Jaejoong broke the kiss to catch his breath and gasped, "Gosh Min, I just came here to tell you breakfast was ready and look what you do to me, you horny bastard." Jaejoong laughed before opening the door, "Hurry up before everyone eats your food, I'm not making anymore." With that Jaejoong closed the door and left Changmin unsatisfied. Changmin growled slightly before hurring up to his closet and get dressed. Outside Jaejoong buttoned back up his shirt and fixed his collar before going down the hallway. Right when he finished Junsu opened his door looking exhausted and wipped out. "Junsu what happend to you?" Jaejoong asked in amusment.

"You don't want to even know Jae trust me, I've had a crazy morning" Junsu replied with a sigh. "Jaejoong just grinned and walked back into the kitchen with Junsu following him.

"Damn! I was wondering when you would be coming back Jaejoong, you sure took your time hu? And Min isnt with you. I thought you were getting Changmin not Junsu" Yunho said.

"Fix your hair Jaejoong, you look like you just screwed Min." Yoochun said with a soft chuckle before drinking his coffee.

"Shut up Yoochun, I just got sidetracked."

"Oh I see that." Yoochun said before turning around to see Changmin enter the kitchen. Yoochun got up and walked over Changmin before nuzzling his nose into Changmin's neck. Instinctly Changmin's head dropped back at the feeling of Yoochun's warm breath. "Mmmm, you smell good Minnie." Yoochun said while staring back Jaejoong with a grin.

"Get off him Chun!!" Jaejoong yelled, "or else I'm going to get your little dolphin boy!"

Seeing Jaejoong happy and playful made him smile. It wasn't all the time you would see him like this, well not after what happened before Min, but he's getting better now thanks to Min. Sadly Yunho wasn't aware of the fact that Jaejoongs cheerful spirit wouldn't last long. Yunho got up and made his way out of the kitchen past the others meaningless arguements. Before he left, he yelled, "Guys be ready tonight were going to go have some fun. Until then do whatever you want I don't care, but you better be ready tonight ok?" The questions was not meant to be answered it was just obeyed.

 

Was this ok? Im sorry if it turned out too long! I hope this reached you guys expectations. Untill next time...BYE!
COMMENTS ARE LOVED...(INSULTS TOO IF YOU MUST)

SUMMER BREAK!! BABY!!!

Hello, this is Monkay.
This is my first chaptered fanfiction and I hope you like it. ^_^
Pairings: Jaemin, Yoosu, Jaeho, some small other ones (maybe)
Rating: NC17
Chapter: Prologue/??
Summary: Jaejoong has been broken emotionally and physical too many times. His sweet loving personality that his friends (Yunho, Changmin, Yoochun, Junsu) used to know has turned upside down turning him into a cold hearted man. He spends his time drinking at bars (or anywhere else) Feeling pity for Jaejoong, Changmin began dating him and offering much love. Jaejoong being corrupt from past relationships begins being violent with Changmin. The relationship turns for the bad as Junsu begins to try to help Changmin only to end up dangering his own life. Yoochun gets involved as well as Yunho as they try to help Jaejoong learn to love agian. Will he learn to love again?

Prologue

Changmin closed his eyes tighter and his body stiffened within Yunho's arms at the noise of Jaejoong throwing down more objects. "Shut the hell up Yoochun!" Jae yelled, "This is none of your fucking business!"

"It is when you are getting violent and taking out your anger on the others." Yoouchun growled. Yoochun noticed that Jaejoong's eyes where clouded up and he wasn't thinking straight. "You've had too much to drink tonight, just go to your room and calm down, your scaring Changmin. If you continue scaring him, who knows he might leave you too." At that simple saying something clicked within Jaejoong that made snap.

"Don't talk about Changmin!" Jaejoong yelled just before running up to Yoochun with his fists clenched. In one smooth motion Yoochun moved away from the assult, grabbed his arm, and twisted it around him making Jaejoong's back face him. Jaejoong gasped in pain as Yoochun held him.

"Jae, go to your room and chill out." Yoochun said while letting Jaejoong go slowly. Almost imedianly after he was free from Yoochun's grip Jaejoong turned around about to attemt another punch.

"Go to hell Yooc-" Jaejoong's breath left him when Yoouchun's fist made contact with his stomach. Jaejoong fell into the ground gasping for breath that he lost due to the impact. Jaejoong stared up at Yoochun who was now towering him. Jaejoong looked down before punching the ground and running towards Yoochun tackling him down.

"Yoochun!" Junsu yelled. Junsu ran and pushed Jaejoong off his lover. While helping Yoochun up Jaejoong grabbed Junsu by the hair dragging him up. "Ahhh, Jae that hurts!" Jaejoong ignored Junsu's pleas to stop continuing to pull Junsu up. Yunho having seen enough got up and pushed Jaejoong away making him let go of Junsu. Yunho then quickly pinned him against the wall, with his arms pinned next to him.

"Jaejoong, you have to stop before someone gets seriously hurt." Jaejoongs eyes closed and Yunho let him go only to be pulled in into a rough kiss from Jaejoong. Everyone watched in shock before Jaejoong broke free and walked into his room slamming the door shut. Yunho rubbed his lips tasting the alchol from Jaejoong. He turned around to face the other, silence consuming them all.


Comments are loved!

 

 

Why did I end up falling for you?

Pairing: Yoosu

Rating: PG 13

His long brown crisp hair fell upon his masculant face. His feet dragged along with him as he climbed the stairs of his apartment in silence, countinuing to walk almost lifelessly untill he halted in front of a sturdy door. He sighed as he knocked on the door...he waited...and waited...and waited. Suddenly he clenched his fists and pounded the door like a madman. When all the rage left him he turned around and slid down the door burying his face between his legs. "Junsu..." he wispered as sadness replace his rage.

"Why did I end up falling for you?

No matter how much time passed I still thought you were right here, but you've already chosen a diffrent path.

Why couldn't I call out to you at all?

Every day and night growing emotions and words overflow, but I realized that they'd never reach you again..."

"Yoochun?" A young boy asked him as he crouched down to sit beside the handsome man. "Are you alright?" Yoochun looked up at the younger boy with tear struck eyes.

"...Since that day I first met you I felt like I already knew you.

You and I melded into each other so smoothly.

It was natural for me to be where you were.

No matter how much time has passed, I still thought you were right here. Now we can't turn back."

"I'm fine Junsu, just fine." Yoochun replied before locking lips with Junsu's. Junsu's eyes opened wide in shock before he kissed Yoochun back with the same passion he was reciving from Yoochun. After a while Junsu broke free for breath and just stared at Yoochun's unemotional eyes. He had never seen him like this, so emtey.

"Yoochun, I'm so-" Junsu was suddenly cut off by something unexpected. Junsu's cheek flared up after the back of Yoochun's plam made quick, but painful contact with his face.

"Shut up, Junsu. I don't want to hear your shit." Yoochun said before stuffing his hands in his pockets, taking out his keys, unlocking the door, and leaving Junsu to his thoughts outside his door.

"It was natural for me to be where you were.

The two of us grew up together, but you 've already choosen a different path."

Junsu slowly got up and left the apartment complex with a hand on his buring cheek.

"JUNSU!"

"Hey Taeyeon. How did you find me?"

"I dont know I just did" Taeyeon said before leaning into a kiss. Junsu kissed her slowly and sweet just before he broke free in whispered something in her ear that made her giggle. With a sweet smile on his delicate face Junsu entertwined his fingers with hers and walked into the park.

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Yoochun watched outside his window with disgust. How could she take Junsu away from his so quick?

Yoochun walked into the living room and turned on the television. Lifeless images where moving on the screen, unwanted noise was coming out of the speakers as Yoochun dazed at the lights flashing from the television.

"Why did I end up falling for you?

No matter how much time has passes I still thought you were right here.

Now we can't turn back.

The special meaning held by this day.

Today you stood with a happy expression.

You looked so beautiful while praying to God.

But I wasn't the one next to you

and the image of you reciving blessings

of that how could I let go?"

Yoochun was quickly pulled back into realitly when his cell phone rang. The caller ID made him wonder why he would be calling him. He picked up the phone, but kept silent as he listened to the voice from the other end.

"Yoochun? Yoochun?! Hey are you there. Yoochun please answer!"

"What Junsu?" Yoochun said dimly

"Listen I'm sorry for everything I have done, and I want to clear things up with you. Can you please come over my apartment becuase I really need to talk to you. Please? Yoochun?" Yoochun hung up the phone and thought for a moment. Should he go or should he not he questioned before leaning into the comfort of the couch and continued to watch the television.

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The rain was falling smoothly against the windows. The moon shining high in the sky, showing of his lean, fine face. Yoochun walked out the door with a rain coat on and his hands hidden within the pockets. Tell me why I am going. The rain was coming down faster and harder. Yoochun's long hair was sticking to his neck and face making his mysterious looking in the mists of night. He stood in front of Junsu's door, and was about to knock when just then Junsu opened the door. "YOOCHUN! its raining come in!" Junsu gasped while grabbing Yoochun's are before pulling him into the apartment. Yoochun stood next to the door with his arms crossed across his chest.

"Why did I end up falling for you?

How we were before we cannot return to it anymore.

Why didn't I hold on to your hands?

No matter how much time has passed

you should have always been by my side. (never changing)"

The ends of Yoochun's lips twiched upwards at the sight of Junsu franticly trying to warm him up. Oh how he missed his sweet, loving attention. The worried face he would have if the tinniest of things happend to Yoochun.

"Junsu. Im sorry." Junsu looked at Yoochun who had tears streaming down his face.

"...Chunnie?"

"Su I am sorry. I'm sorry for waiting this long to tell you, I didnt think you would leave me. I'm sorry for not being perfect for you and I'm sorry I was too weak to ever tell you how I felt. When we first meet, I was amazed by your charm, your looks, your personalitly, the loving aroma coming off of you always comforting me. I was always with you, but now I'm alone JUNSU! You finally left me! All those sweet kissed meant nothing, and those nothings you whispered into my ear all lost. PLEASE JUNSU FORGIVE ME...take me back Su...i love you Su." Yoochun let all his emotions and feelings fall out to Junsu who now was watching Yoochun slowly break down right in front of him. Junsu's eyes began to sting with tears rolling down his face as he held Yoochun's shoulders.

"Chunnie...Im so sorry"

Yoochun slowly looked up, "then why Su? why did you leave me for her? you knew i cared for you, but you left."

"Yoochun," Junsu said as he raised up Yoochun's face "you never told me how you felt, and Taeyeon said she loved me..."

"NO! thats not fair Junsu, she cant take you away from me...i need you Junsu. I need your love."

"Yoochun..." Junsu cooed while wrapping him within his arms and rocking him slowly trying to hush him. "Yoochun?" Junsu questioned before looked down to see him asleep. It's been a long time since he saw him peaceful. Junsu place a small kiss on the man's forehead. I will always love you Chunnie.

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Yoochun woke up in a forign room, until realization hit him. He was in Junsu's bed. Next to the bed on the nightstand there was a letter.

Dear Chunnie,

dont be sorry. none of this is your fault but mine. i love your sweet smiles, your smooth hair,

you husky voice, but most of all Chunnie i love you. i love you no matter what. here and in

the next world. please remeber this yoochun i will love you always and forever no matter

what. and believe me i would run into your arms in an instanst, if only i wasnt already engaged.

Chunnie my parents have arranged my marrage with Taeyeon. please understand this will hurt

me more then it will hurt you.

goodbye Chunnie.

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Yoochun couldn't believe what he was reading. He got up out of the bed and walked out the door and headed back to his apartment.

"But still, even if I'm nowhere near you anymore

im praying that you may be happy for eternity.

no matter how much that would make me lonely."

While Yoochun was walking back he couldnt help but notice seeing Junsu with Taeyeon. Yoochun stopped in his tracks when Junsu locked eyes with him. Yoochun smiled, a sweet loving smile. Junsu's eyes began to water as he smiled back. Thank you Yoochun, for everything. "Common Junsu lets eat ice cream!" Taeyeon exclaimed, pulling Junsu away.

Yoochun continued to walk home with a tiring sigh.

Bye Junsu.

 

Comments are loved alot. How was it for a first? The italic wordings was the lyrics to their new song in which i hope you support and buy their CD this july. thank you ^_^

 

Hello, i go by the name monkays. 
im a bit new here. i have never posted anything, and this wil be my first. im a HUGE jaeho and other dbsk couples fan. school is almost over and by then i hope i am going to be done with at least on fanfiction im working on.

one fanfiction im working on is a YOOSU fiction

the other fanfiction is a JAEMIN, JAEHO, YOOSU, ect. fanfiction its going to be chaptered and quiet long. i hope you will enjoy it. i dont have much friends but i hope that it will change.

i have read alot of the fanfictions in the jaeho and yoosu and ect. communities and i love them...im on of those silent readers.